I’m not a religious person, but I’m definitely spiritual and I think certain things really mean something. Lately I keep seeing the message, “focus on what you want instead of what you don’t want”. I’ve been trying to take this to heart.
There is a particular area of my life in which I feel like I’m cursed right now (not literally, but damn is my luck bad). One wall after another, even when I focus on what I want instead of what I don’t want. I feel defeated and I feel like giving up. I’m tired of hurting.
But if I’m to take a growth perspective, maybe it’s not just about focusing on what I want. Life is complicated and everything is multifaceted. Maybe a big part of it isn’t just facing some of my biggest fears (which I’ve done a lot over the last couple of years) but truly embracing them so I’m really not afraid anymore. Maybe it’s about staying focused. Maybe it’s learning to grieve and get right back up and carry my head high. Maybe it’s about being grateful for what I have instead of mourning what I don’t. Maybe it’s just this…trying to stay positive when I feel like life is trying to bring me down.
The universe is a good teacher. I appreciate the lessons. I’m just tired.
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